Have you ever put something off? Over and over again?? I just keep pushing some things from one To-Do list to the next To-Do list... hoping and praying that somehow, somewhere, the things will get done. And they don't! I am an expert procrastinator... and can justify my delays in all sorts of ways!! I don't have time right now. It's going to take longer than I have time for. I have more important things to do. I'll do it tomorrow. I'll do it on the weekend. I'll do it sometime. I need to get psyched up to do it. I don't have everything that I require to do it. I don't know how to do it. I don't know what to say.
Blah, blah, blah!!! Sigh... Procrastination is another one of those disempowering things. It's like the things that I procrastinate on are weights that I carry with me. Individually they don't weigh all that much... a few ounces here and a few ounces there... That's really not going to add up to all that much, right? But they do add up quickly, and I feel like I am carrying this masive weight around with me, dragging me down, weighing me down. And I know that!! But I still do it... I seem powerless sometimes to do anything different. Which is all a load of bullshit as you know! It is my choice... and I often choose to put things off. I don't own my choices but try to blame other circumstances or people for why this thing is not happening. Not a very empowering way to live. I am actually giving my power away to the things or people around me. Ick... So.. what to do... what to do??? Maybe I'll think about it for a bit and come up with a new To-Do list??? Heh-heh... or just... "DO IT"!!!
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Uh-huh....you and your lists....they are great if you actually finish the list, but when you keep transferring a particular task from list to list, then you need to look at that task and see what the issue is about it. Fear? Of what? Not finishing it? Or perhaps fear of finishing it but not knowing at the start how it will turn out at the end? There's a lack of control there....maybe that is the bigger issue? Or perhaps fear of your own greatness and of moving out of your comfort zone, so then of course you would have trouble starting...so then, here's a couple of questions...How do you want to live your life - empowered or disempowered? and...(even on a daily basis) What is your intention?
No kidding! Somebody's been taking an RTS workshop! Fear is my biggie... always has been... and it keeps raising its ugly head in new and various shapes... masquerading as something that is trying to protect me... ergh!!
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