Procrastination

Have you ever had that feeling of dithering, of prorastinating on making a big decision... and you keep going around and around and around... and nothing gets done... and it's a whole lot of indecision and suffering! It's a horrible space to be in and... yet, we keep going back into it... or at least I do... Sigh... I think sometimes I believe that if I postpone on making a decision that things will become clearer or that God is going to erect a giant "do this, not this" sign. So far, that hasn't ever happened, but hope does spring eternal! A few days ago, one of the "inspirational" subscriptions that I get as email said that it was time to get clear on who I choose to be and what I choose... I find it amazing how these emails so often reflect exactly the state that I am in... and perhaps it is time to choose... And then a part of me retreats in fear and doesn't want to choose anything! Why can't the world just continue as it is... why does anything have to change. I mean, really, it's not all that bad right now... and who knows what the future might look like if I make a leap right now... Although, to be completely honest, the future could be amazingly fulfilling... if I just stepped into it... So... to leap into the future or not??