Call it what you will... hesitation, indecisiveness, dithering, uncertainty... they all seem to be at the root of procrastination. I've been reflecting on what keeps me from doing certain things... And this seems to be the key for some of them... for a lot of them... I'm not sure what to do... or how to do it... or when to do it... So I think that if I just postpone the decision or hte action, then things will get clear for me... I think that somehow "more time" will make everything fall into place.
Well, that doesn't always happen... actually, I'm not sure that it ever happens... I'm waiting for something that might never come... or might never come in the form that I expect it to come. I think that I will get clear... or I think that it is easier to just postpone things... I don't want to handle things in the moment.
Maybe at the root lies a fear that I don't have what it takes. That if I just wait a while, I'll have more knowledge or skill or understanding... and I can handle whatever it is that is coming... I don't really trusst that I have it within me... now... But I would say that on the whole... I do have what it takes, right here, right now...
Putting it off just keeps me stuck... keeps me thinking that at some time "in the future"... all will become clear. I need to act now... with who I am and what I have to offer... right now... Because the future doesn't exist and might never come... So, why not just do it... now?
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