Self-Trust

Ah, now here is the kicker... Do we actually trust ourselves? Hmmm... that is a big one. Because we don't just make promises and agreements with others. We make promises and agreements with ourselves. We say that we are going to do something... and what happens then if we don't actually do it?

Yeah... we lose a little bit of trust in ourselves. That would see to be fairly common sense. And we can also build trust with ourselves. Some days the trust level goes up... some days it goes down. It's really up to us though. Whereas our trust in others is dependent to a certain extent on their actions (driving erratically)... our trust in ourselves is solely dependent on ourselves and our actions. We're it... And ohhhh... we don't like that sometimes!

We can come up with all sorts of excuses as to why we break our word to ourselves - I'm tired, the weather is bad, the news is bad, I don't have enough time, I had a hard day, I deserve a pick-me-up. Yeah... we use a lot of them... But really, the only person we're injuring is ourselves.

Building trust in ourselves is a day-by-day, hour-by-hour, minute-by-minute process. We have a choice in each and every moment as to whether we are going to choose an action that is going to raise our trust level in ourselves... or whether we are going to choose an action that will lower it.

We make a commitment to meditate every day - and if we do that... our trust level rises. We make a commitment to go for a walk every day - and if we don't do that... our trust level decreases. I suppose the real question is this... do we want to trust ourselves? Do we want to build trust in ourselves? What is the price we pay if we keep losing trust in ourselves? Does that affect our trust in others as well?